Proverbs 31ministries .
I recently joined a Bible study group : It is something I never did before but the title caught my eye, and my heart.
We are working on Lysa Terkeust latest book : "I am messing up my kids?".
Great title , right?? And a question I ask myself about 100 times a month:!
SO yes, I thought, this Bible study is for me!!
The book is awesome, just what I needed for this long summer break with my children.
I needed to feel I am not alone feeling bad about my mothering, feeling I need to refill , to fill with more than chocolate!!
Because, Yes- I do feel that being a mum is tough. At least it does not always come naturally to me.
Today we are having a Bog Hop and we share why we think being a mother is tough! SO I am going to be real today ..
I look after my kids alone most of the time, even on week-ends as my husbands works long hours.
I also work full time as a teacher outside the home .
And as you may know I NEED to sew and craft on a daily basis in order to keep my sanity!
I love being a Mum; I love these 2 so much it hurts sometimes! I spend my time thinking of them, or worrying for them , or planning things for them, or talking about them :)
I am the kind of mum who wants my kids to have a good time :
But I am also the mum who gets mad at the mess they make :
I am the one who dreams of sewing while teaching my kid to sew, early morning, her still in her pyjamas, still wearing traces of that funny make up:
and hear her squeal in delight!
I also am the kind of Mum whose kids can go to school with mismatched socks...and hair hardly combed.
I run all the time and say "quick"/ "hurry" a thousand times a year!
Somtimes I also worry about my childrens's hearts and soul: are they making room for Jesus in their lives? Are they Good enough ?
Yes - I struggle and I yell and I pray to God that He may help me be a better Mum.
I want to be a good Mum , not the perfect one, just the one my kids need me top be, just the way God deigned me to be!
I need to remember that when I am drained, emptied, I need to turn to God so he can refill me with the Love I need to give to my kids.
I am so glad I started this Bible Study. Already after a few days of reading and studying the Bible, I feel I have tools and weapons to fight my Mum guilt and anxiety!